I just wanna do a post before i carry on with my API report. I really feel so drain out of energy from every single cell in my body. This is just the 2nd week of sch reopening but i'm already worry about all the unfinished piled up sch work, okay and let me repeat "P.I.L.E.D.-U.P."!!!
i have like 4 report to rush and i'm really worried about all the projects i'm having this sem.
Please any god or in fact all gods of all religions please just let this year and the nxt pass over really fast. where 1hour = 60 sec!!! please please pretty please. Cause this sem sch, Argh!! nvrm i don't wanna talk about it.
"Sign" i really don't understand why living in Singapore is so exhausting. Well i think i kind of know the answer, it is all because we Singaporean are all brought up will the the thinking of " it's every man for themselves" call us selfish but it is a fact and i accept it. Even if your parents never teach you this teacher in school does and even if teacher in school don't people of all walks in life that are you "friends" & "classmate" will some how force you to take that ideal up. well nobody wants to suffer, nobody wants to be in the losing end nobody will pity you and help you this is just the way the world goes round at least this is what i have learn as i grow older and as time pass you will be like them. You do have to self protect yourself right? why do you have to do all the dirty job yourself for free since nobody pity you, you will also not pity others. i guess it's not wrong to live with "me,myself and i" first! as a Singaporean.
However, i just so tired of this life where everyday you have to fight for your rights, to protect yourself , to always be high in defences, and endure all the things you hate to do but have no choice to swallow it into your stomach! So many thing that are unpleasant and i don't wanna talk about it and i think it's pointless to talk about it as saying it out won't change a single shit. Or maybe this is the live of a city dweller, oh how i wish i was a farmer, i would just plant my veggie, use my com and live a happy and simple live, where everybody is just so real, no fake faces to see, no rules to follow, no school to go to, no group project to rush, no datelines,no exams. "Sigh" but nobody in this world can choose their parents and their life everything is all pre set for us..oh well i think i better go start doing my API report...


my sad life T_T